Mary

Another funeral happened this year. 

I don't know how to explain it (even to myself) that instead of being sad, I'm emotionally distant and sometimes a bit angry. Travelling to my homeland just for two days didn't allow me to settle in this new/old situation. Over a month ago grandma said pa pa, which means bye bye ... was already frail, disappearing from this world bit by bit. Now, she's no more. It's like I expected her to stay forever trapped between existence and non-existence. As always, forever never lasts too long.